Extrodinarily Me

My weekend was definitely an exciting one ! I was given the opportunity to be the key hairstylist and makeup artist for a short film called “The Cut”. I just recently jumped back into hair in make up after a long break.

The team I worked with was amazing and made me feel right at home on set. I saw the inside of how making a film from idea to script really comes together .

(SCENE:The Cut)

I truly enjoyed the director (Tim)who was also my lead actor and (Alexis) the lead actress. The were so easy to work with. I usually work on the other side of the camera but 2 yrs ago I wanted to try something different. I started doing make up and it seemed as though I got no support at all. Even my just business cards were criticized by the people closest to me. Fast forward two years  with a ” Your Dreams ” speech and so much love in my life I’m back at it and this is my second shoot in two weeks.  Did I mention I have another shoot today!

For a while I really just didn’t have it in me to pursue this aspect of my dreams but with the right people behind you pushing you and supporting you, things begin to come together. I’m so thankful for my support system . Word can’t describe how thankful I am. Now I’m able to get back to one of my greatest passions. #Setlife

August 29, 2017February 15, 2018 by Thegermanbeautyblog Categories: Acting, life, Makeup Artist, setlife, Uncategorized 1 Comment

FLYING MONKEY!

The term “flying monkey” is widely used by mental health professionals to describe individuals who enable narcissist and do their bidding.

Unfortunately I’ve dealt with a flying monkey on two different occasions with two different relationships. 

I understand relationships/ marriages end sometimes meaning there will be another person that comes into your ex’s life…My hope was always that I could at least see my children’s fathers with respectable women that I could grow to trust with my children but so far that hasn’t been the case..

They always find a flying monkey!

Regardless, in my successful quest of removing myself from those relationships I had to make the decision  to stop engaging the flying monkeys because at the end of the day they are a non factor..

At first I was ready to let any flying monkey have it because they don’t know me and they choose to take the side of a person who they already know is a flat out liar. I wanted to prove so badly that I had been misrepresented but, when it’s all said an done they didn’t care about what was true . 

So I stopped the back and forth through social media because it doesn’t do anything for me or that individual it serves the purpose of bait for the toxic person who started all this mess. There is no need to convince someone that I’m right when I know they know the truth.. 

For some people a lie serves a better purpose of covering up wrong doing then to actually tell the truth and be looked at for who they really are. The real them isn’t  attractive even looking in the mirror. The real them would get looked down upon by the average person that they probably work with or spend time with  if they knew the truth ..

So of course hiding behind a lie seems like the best option.. but the truth always comes out eventually.

Honestly it’s better to let them just experience it  all themselves because they are defending wrong doing. 

Why??? Who knows why??? 

I would never defend or purposely attach myself to anybody who I’ve seen dog someone else out or mistreated someone but thats me. I’m not going to defend or attach myself permanently to someone who has lied to me when they had no reason too. A person who shows shady character and no integrity. Somethings just don’t make sense.

I just don’t have the time or energy to give to these people anymore . I know lies are gonna be told because self image has to be protected and it easier to be a victim then to self correct . Nobody wants to put two and two together and you could send them a bible of reciepts to prove yourself to be true it will do no good. 

So if you are experiencing a flying monkey. My best advice would be let them have it let them think they’re winning . Let them trash and slander you and proclaim your defeat to the world because the same person they are flying for will eventually show them their true colors … by then you will have moved on and found real happiness .

Life without toxic individuals is way better then with them.. smile and thank GOD for loving you enough to remove you from that situation!

©TheGermanBeauty

July 3, 2017July 3, 2017 by Thegermanbeautyblog Categories: Family, life, Love and relationships, narcissistic personality disorder, Relationships Leave a comment

BLAST OFF

It is so exciting to actually live your dreams and not just talk about them!! 

Two years ago I stepped back in to the entertainment world after a 6 year hiatus  . My goal at that time was just to add another source of income to my life in preparation for moving to the west coast but things changed quickly. 

Knowing God the way I do if it’s not his plan he will turn your life up side down! Plans changed quickly!!! Needless to say I didn’t move. 

I God showed me that the safest place to be was Atlanta. Lucky for me Atlanta is currently little Hollywood so it makes so things are great here for new actors and aspiring artists.  For me my life revolved around modeling , but I’ve redirected to acting and I am loving every minute. 

I already have  a lot on my resume from movies, tv, and I did a two year run as a video model “not for me at all” but I tried it.

2016 was my first leading role for a Web series first featured BG role in a feature film released in theatres. I just feel so blessed right now to have these doors opening up for me . GOD shut me down for the ultimate win!! 

It’s crazy to talk face to face with actors and actresses you’ve watched on t.v and in movies and have them tell you they can see something in you. Not only that my kids are now following in MY footsteps also doing commercials and feature films as well. My youngest daughter just filmed her t.v debut  on one of the top primetime shows on B.E.T and she’s being looked at for a recurring role on another network show .

Life Is amazing right now finally seeing success with the dreams I’ve had since I was a child. God blessed me with so many talents and I allowed myself to place them on the backburner for a goal God had nothing to do with . 

I was headed in a direction for years where I had no real support for my dreams and no way to achieve them but I’m back on track now and I’m traveling..!!! 

 Something I never do cause I hate planes but guess what when you really want something and God says go you go!  No fear ! No doubt ! No questions! My team “My family” never stopped believing in me and has supported the vision so all I can see now is success success success!!

#HAMBONE

    ©TheGermanBeauty

June 21, 2017June 22, 2017 by Thegermanbeautyblog Categories: Acting, life, Uncategorized Leave a comment

My World !

My world is honestly better than its ever been .. because for the first time in 9years when I go to bed at night I’m not wondering about him

I’m no longer sitting around looking  for the man  I’m suppose to be married too.

I no longer have to sneak around at night and check his phone to see who he’s been texting or talking too.

I no longer have to worry about him making me into a fool that seat now belongs to you…
I don’t have to worry about the online dating sites or him sneaking around on social media

I sleep in peace, I live in peace, I can finally love and be someone’s peace.
I don’t have to hear my friends say girl you deserve better 

No more lies or 4 page apology letters

I dont have to smell the smoke or listen to every lie under the sun

It took this to get me to walk away from him but rest assured I’m definitely done

He claimed she was his $$  looks like now he’s going to be paying some 
Well that’s unless she continues to stay dumb …

 I mean you were pushing for Justice with both our girls guess you finally got some .

She knew who I was but hey for both of you it was all fun

The funny part is she’s already just like me cause you already been kicking it with a  new one …..

 she said you were a great man not knowing how you don’t give a damn about anyone but yourself 

I was seen as the enemy when I was trying to protect OUR vows, myself and OUR wealth, the seeds we planted that have now been irreversibly damaged but ….no one cared

She didn’t care about you taking care of OUR children as long as she had you there

I wonder if our daughters are going to feel that your decisions were fair

Or maybe your son but you know how it feels to be him you were never unaware 

So now she got what she wanted but you will never be true??
You have a lot to say about your father , what are your kids going to say about you 

It’s sad that you lied and denied her seed you planted .. I guess both of us tricked you none of it was ever romantic.

From what you’ve been doing behind closed doors it’s seems as if your not through 

To think you just mentioned me being barefoot and pregnant again.. I’m so glad I know you.. The real you

So if there was even a question my world is fine .. I spent way to many years with my eyes closed pretending to be blind

I prayed for years that some how we would  stay intact but nothing you can ever say or do  will get me to come back 

I LOVE MY NEW WORLD.. 

©TheGermanBeauty

June 19, 2017June 30, 2017 by Thegermanbeautyblog Categories: Family, life, Love and relationships, Relationships Leave a comment

What Really Matters

The picture you see above is a young woman her husband and their newborn child. A couple who were celebrating the birth of their 5th child together.Taken just 3 weeks ago it was one of the last she would take. A beautiful woman was called to heaven this past week at 36 years old. This woman’s name is Charity.

I never did anything more than sit in the same room with Charity but, her presence changed my life for the better. Charity has spent the last years of her life spreading the gospel of Jesus in Madagascar with her family. During this time Charity was diagnosed with cancer. Charity fought her cancer into remission but it returned to attack her body. During her second fight with the illness, Charity found out she was pregnant and was told by doctors to terminate the pregnancy. Charity was told her life would be cut short if she kept the baby. Her faith in GOD lead her to keep that child and, because of that selfless decision Charity left this world last week.

In her life and her passing Charity changed lives and inspired people. In her short 36 years, she was able to impact the world. Her departure from the world caused many questions in my mind. Why her? Why her family? Why not someone else? Why not me? I suffered greatly during my own pregnancy last year.The doctors told me several times that I could lose my own life having my daughter Ava. I had nurses at my home weekly I lost 30lbs and my ability to sit up or walk. Towards the end of my pregnancy, the pain was so unbearable that I would lay in bed with my mother and cry for hours. I had made up in my mind that I was ready to go but today I’m still here. Today I celebrate my 30th birthday and today Ava is 3 months old.

Today I am here and Charity is not. Although I have questioned GOD I know I don’t have that right. The only thing I know is that GOD doesn’t make mistakes. Charity fulfilled her purpose here and at the same time helped me search harder to find my own. Knowing her sacrifice I choose to make the most of my time here. What really matters are my children, my family and, living a life to serve others and spread the gospel.

Charity did that! So today I honor her and I pray her family will continue to see her harvest. I pray her children will one day feel and understand the legacy that their mother left here.  I pray that her husband finds peace.  Thank you, Charity for helping me to see that I’ve spent too much time on things that don’t matter at all.

R.I.H Charity Jertberg

April 11, 2017April 17, 2017 by Thegermanbeautyblog Categories: life, UncategorizedTags: Abortion, Baby, Cancer, GOD, inspiration, life, Mothers, Pain, Pregnancy, Purpose, Sacrifice, Wife Leave a comment